I heard your voice from across the room, still as sweet as before.
Some say it has grown hoarse, cracked, and broken. I still hear that sweet young woman I fell in love with all those years ago, that young and vibrate voice calling me across the room and drowning out the beeps of machines keeping you alive.
I guess I still hear you that way because I’m still living in hope and everyone else is living in reality, I can’t do that.
You touched me and I felt you more deeply than ever before, in one touch I could feel you give in and yet lead me, I don't know if I can follow.
You moved once and it moved me. Every breath you took was like watching a mountain shape and move, I enjoyed the eternity I was trying to keep with you.
If life has only one timeline, if forever is a one-way street, I wouldn’t wanna walk down this road with anyone else. I wanna be bonded to the soles of your shoes so I can be with you every step of this journey. If there is just one time, I wanna spend my time with you, forever.
To get back to where we were before is something I’d give anything for, I wanna spend forever there. I’d replay it every day and start over the next one. Just one more pause, just one more look, just once more.
If you should pull me under with you, I’d rather drown with you than tread water by myself. If this is too much for you to hear I’m sorry but I wouldn’t change a word.
Your body is like a ship that was not built for storms but we are weathering the worst storm we can and I feel as though we are rocking slowly down, feeling the pull of the tide and sinking together.
In my head, I’m leaving you at home, not here in this room full of wires.
Your tired eyes and sunken face isn’t how I see you, I see you as you are.
That young woman I fell in love with those many years and many storms ago.
I wish we could come out the other side of this storm together but I know that the captain must go down with the ship and I’m just sad you’re gonna leave this sailor to tread water without you.
Cancer has struck our vessel.
You’re the one sinking and yet I feel like I’m the one dying.
I would die to save you. I can’t say that enough.
I don’t think I can keep swimming if you are not there with me.
I just want our forevers to be and end together.
I just want our forevers to be and end together.
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